Its a bad day today. From the moment I stepped in school till I the moment I stepped out of school I'm just possessed by anger. And something else. I'd swear that any fly that comes by a metre radius would drop dead instantly. Michelle-s in my life are like bees and honey, I always have a Michelle by my side. Caught red-handed of doodling stick figures on the table by the Malay teacher. Honestly she knows how to stab. What a waste though, the stick figures weren't nice enough to get me scoldings. Mid-day was the peak. If I'm Hercules, the school wouldn't be standing now. Sigh.

Flew to tuition and vectors just killed me. The Guinness substation wasn't large, like a home. The play was superb. It can really get an Oscar. Especially Othello. Tall, stout, like Guinness. Baby sang like a pretty bird. Naz and me were having buttcramps, fats being compressed for two hours. Imagine the pain...

It was since the stone ages that I got to know her, yet I saw the wrinkly part of her, the worm in the apple. It was horrid I must say. I saw someone who faintly resembled him in SRJC. That's two shocks in a week. Plus, lousy Econs MCQ and GP compre marks, it's all enough to drive me down eleven storeys.

My days are getting worse, worsened by foul mood. Is it really lack of sleep that made me cranky, or was it the jealousy and pain inside? I shall have to ask God to grant me that answer.

To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect,
That makes calamity of so long life.

Good night.

ofblack&white
3:20 PM

It started off with me being glued to the table, I could hardly lift my head up. Gravity did a fantastic job on my eyelids yet again. Monday Blues it was, I should've bought extra minty Mentos to set me on fire. Now someone must have a bottle to put that fire out. Ok. LAME. I know.

It is amazing how some people can chatter incessantly. Could really make a good advert for Energizer...

Mr Lee somewhat felt annoyed at the LT4 math group, and why shouldn't he? I really pity him, he is trying so hard now. We had to wear some black band beneath our PE shirts, and it really itched. I feel like a spastic girl who's wearing two bras, one black and one white. Walked 5 rounds with that uncomfortable thing inside. Badminton-ed and I ran like the wind. Wil and Ham weren't the best of people to play with; they made me run up and down, left and right, like a dog after a frisbee. Thank God I wasn't sticking my tongue out. I was left dripping after like a tap, and I stank in the bus. I shall have to thank the others in 25 for not pinching their noses.

I had a nice talk earlier in the day. I haven't been opening up for a long time. But I shouldn't do it too often should I? I'm not going to trust a single person with my life since I was cheated last two years. And I shall keep my promise.

ofblack&white
10:20 AM

How can our breezy compre papers in primary school morphed itself into something so bloody undoable in JC is beyond me. I don't even understand this riddly passage. And I still have History Essay Outline, Econs TYS on monopoly, and malay bloody compo to do.

SOMEBODY SAVE ME. All this came piling up today like a mountain. My back's going to break soon. i need to be a kite unwind myself. All I've been doing these days were to be holed up in the room with mountains of books piling up northsoutheastwest. Holidays I need you bad.

Trying to do this... comprehension-that-I'm-suppose-to-comprehend-but-apparently-I'm-not is killing me. I'll just leave the chunk of summary and AQ out. I'm in need to murder this Arturo Madrid character from US for writing such a Greek-ish passage.

Somebody please save me. Burn the school down or something please thank you. Oh and spare the field for soccer.

ofblack&white
3:00 PM

We had been cookie monsters for the day, stuffing ourselves silly with cookies we had bake. Gruelling time trying to stay awake in religious class, and I'm quite certain I'm going to hell for that. I went to Naz's residence, and we basked in the sunlight for cookie ideas (it is for our CT so kind and patient), with help from the ever-hungry Syahril via phone. Hastily-made decision get us flying to Bedok interchange to fetch Syahril and Mayyee.

Poor Mayyee train-ed nearly 20 stops from Bishan. Hunting in NTUC for cookie ingredients (we settled for an instant mix no less) and argued on the container. Syah went to find his money changer at Parkway, we settled for home. Mass production begins, no slower than rabbits producing (babies).

Stars and moons and flowers didn't look too well on these ever-expanding cookies, and came the brilliant idea of bars. Bars looked good even if it seemed obese, and it never tasted better, chewy chocolatey I could've died and went to heaven. Cleaning up was hilarious, with the mopped floor and greasy trays.

They left and I'm to fend for myself against the demons that haunt my sleep. I fear sleeping now. I will look like a panda with enormous eyebags that could contain all the water in the reservoir. Insomnia? It's alright. Playing around with imaginations and building castles in the sky distracts my heavy lids.

Apologies to Mayyee to have gotten her to Bedok... I'm sorry I know it was far. :(

They kept telling me to believe in God's mercy and in heaven. But do you think God will forgive the sins that happened?

ofblack&white
11:30 AM

Break of dawn I awake, off to school I go. JC students have such sad lives being up early and rushed off. Early. Icicles formed on my butt during the Math lecture, it could've frozen a cow. 'Escaped' seems to be a more appropriate word when I flew to the bus stop, and grab a train ride to CityHall to meet my girlfriend.

We talked forever and a day, whatever crossed our minds. We laughed and teased and I never felt anymore belonged, than to be in a company of a close TK friend. Walks into nameless shops and criticising each other, it felt like old times.

I built sandcastles, like those from imaginations, at East Coast. It was large and high, it scraped the sky. Car-ed my way home.

Life has its own way of working, and it has been cruel to me so far. Don't delude me of my wish, don't emasculate me. And don't take away that love.

ofblack&white
7:33 PM

New space for free thoughts. New corner to voice out my opinions. My livejournal have too much of past memories, too hard to let go. Why? When i read what I wrote, feelings stirred, emotions welled up.

Poetic gibberish shall taint this blog of mine. Just effects of post soccer. Less than 10 hours of sleep this week made everything seemed whoosy... and blurred.

Shall ask the people in my heart if they would bother with me now.

Tata for now.

ofblack&white
11:41 PM